*Laugh* Pregnant?! Oh how I wish I could be (by accident), ‘cos Allan and I have decided to stop ‘OUR MANUFACTURING COMPANY’ since 2 years ago. We can’t afford another kid when we are sooooo in debt. Any of you out there thinking of setting up your own business, pllllllleeeeassssseee do your ‘homework’ well and dig into fengshui stuff too, one wrong move and that’s what happened to us.

I said BIG CHANGE remember (ooops! I forgot, its probably just to me), I’ve been pregnant twice, so pregnant would not be that BIG to me. Am I killing you already? *laugh* I LOVE quizzes and riddles, so if it’s ever my turn to give one, I’ll make sure it’s not that simple. *Laugh*

Ok, ok! I can feel flying darts heading towards me….So this was what happened:

My elder bro-in-law wanted to change from his Toyota Vios to a MPV Honda Stream to better accommodate to the 7 people in his family – My parents-in-law, his wife, 3 kids and himself of cos.

My BIL thinks that Allan should consider taking over his Toyota Vios and sell away the van. The van that Allan was driving belongs to BIL too. Allan drove BIL van because 2 years ago, Allan started his delivery business and BIL needed Allan to help him deliver greeting cards and calendars to his customers.

BIL owns a printing company on top of his permanent job as a technician and he will continue to pay 40% of the car installment for Allan, just like what he did for the van, in exchange for Allan’s help in delivering his cards. BIL business is not as good as before already, so there isn’t that much cards to deliver, hence a car would do the job.

If you recall the post about Keatkeat opening the door while the vehicle was moving, which could have killed him….yes, that was the van and not a car. So Wonderful LIfe, you commented that we should have switched on the child lock function….we couldn’t, cos there isn’t one for the van!

My much earlier blogger friends like Slouching Mom would have seen the post about the sofa (see picture here) we placed behind the van. Yes, I can hear you shout, “That’s so dangerous! No seatbelts!” And can hear some of you Singaporeans, “It’s illegal!”

Ya, all true but that’s all over now.

So for the past 1 week, we have been going to different dealers to get the best offer. Check out with the insurance company on the premiums to decide whether to change ownership or not. Check out the penalty involved if we change a finance company. Settle all the necessary van-related matters. Kept popping by my BIL house to discuss about details. Check out the price of spraying the car white, instead of its current blue, from different companies that do spray jobs, because of fengshui reasons….etc

Getting the best price for the van took most of our time. But the BIG CHANGE I’m talking about is NOT the change of vehicle. It’s dealing with my phobia of cars.

We used to own a small Toyota Starlet almost 8 years ago. Could you believe it – I will bang the Starlet, one way or another, EVERY TIME when I’m in the driver seat. After about 5 times, I gave up. I got scared. I got worried. I started to doubt myself.

It was only last year September, in Anthony Robbins seminar, did that MAN changed me. He took away my phobia of driving in that short 2 hours.

I have not driven a vehicle for 7 years and yet that MAN gave me the confidence to drive a van right after his seminar and I have been driving the van till the very day I said goodbye to it, accident-free.

When we took over the car, my little evil voice which has been quiet for almost a year started to speak again.

“Yes, you can drive a van, but you can’t drive a car.”

“A van is taller, so you can see further and react earlier, but now its a car, it’s not as easy.”

“You like to be in control of things, that’s why manual-drive in the van suits you, but now, it an auto-drive, it’s different.”

and it just went on and on and on…..

My friends say I’m weird! They said auto-drive is so much easier than manual, yet I love manual-drive. It may sound so true, but auto-drive makes me feel that the car is in control and not me, that’s what I don’t like.

We have took over the car already, but I still dare not drive it. Allan knows my fears. He went to buy blind spot mirrors and a longer rear-view mirror to help me see better, but I still have not driven it yet.

Allan said, “drive only when you are ready.”

So my devil voice and my angel voice are having arguments constantly….who would eventually win, I don’t know….That’s the BIG CHANGE I’m talking about.