I have not been my usual self lately. I have new assignments and new roles to fulfill now, which are outside of what a role of a mother and a housewife needs to be. Plus over the last 2 weeks, I have been busy revamping my house, I am truly exhausted.

Hate to hear myself raising my voice at the kids and to see myself having lesser and lesser play time with them. I noticed I have become another person. And I do NOT like this person that I see anymore.

What used to make me ‘stare’ at them, now can get the fire spitting out from my mouth. It is horrible! This is NOT the usual me and I refused to change into this fiery dragon.

So I put myself up for this challenge.

For 3 days, I shall NOT flare up at my boys. I shall NOT say “Sorry dear, I can’t play with you. I need to settle this.” with my fingers tapping on the keyboard frantically.

NO MORE!

This has truly got to stop before it becomes a habit. As the saying goes “To pick up a bad habit just takes 3 days and to break it takes 3 years!” So BEFORE this becomes a habit, I must put a stop to it!

So what is my punishment?

If I fail the challenge, I will NOT turn on my PC for the following 3 days, which is going to be devastating to the assignments I have on hand. One day without checking my email will cost me money. One day without looking into my schedules on the internet will make me lose my clients trust in me. So the punishment is going to be really severe on myself.

And by announcing this publicly on my blog, it is a commitment I am making, ‘cos all eyes are going to be on me…. Bet there is going to be phone calls checking on my status too… *wink*

To me, if punishment were just to write 100 sentences of repent, then it is bound to fail. As a stay at home mom, it is not just about being a nanny, but one that knows how to prioritise.

With that said. The time has already started today at 00:01… so far so good…