All About Your Child

Yesterday was day 1. Almost failed the Challenge during dinner time!!! OMG!

For those of you who may have missed this post “Dare Take Up The Challenge” might not know what I am talking about…. click the title link to read what is hidden in my sleeve this time, whereby I am wearing sleeveless. *laugh*

Alright, enough of nonsense. This was what happened during dinner last night.

Keatkeat was playing with his utensils. While he was trying to cut the hotdog into half with the spoon. Some rice were already being pushed out of the plate. And for your information, the plate is not flat. Its curve up on the sides. So to get rice out of the plate is not that easy. Thus, can you imagine how much strength he is using on the wrong thing?!

Me: “Keatkeat, use the fork to poke the hotdog. Eat from the fork.”

Keatkeat refused. He wanted to show that he can do it.

Me: “Alright then, Keatkeat, press the spoon down onto the hotdog, not push it to the side. Look at the rice. They are being pushed out of your plate.”

Keatkeat continued.

FINE! So I told myself, since he wants to do it. Fine! He shall wipe the table after dinner. He should clear his own mess then.

Just when I turned my head away from his plate and back to mine.

He flicked his spoon like a juggler would flick an egg!
What did I get in return?
A spoonful of rice on the floor and some on me!!!

I am all ready to burst!
I think my mouth was even half-opened when I had warm rice rained on my lap and my left arm.

I was ready to scream at him!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh…… but I remembered the challenge! And I remembered how much I want to stop this fiery dragon from growing further inside me.

I bit my lips and SHUT UP!

I bent down with my teeth biting onto my in-turned lips; picking up the rice one by one. Then I went to the kitchen, wet the cloth and wiped the floor off its stickiness….

The lump in throat was so hard to swallow. But I kept it there…. I told it to “stay down, stay down…you are NOT going to yell at Keatkeat… hush hush…you must stop being so hot-tempered….”

In the end, the one who yelled was Allan. *laugh* He was scolding the half-embarrassed Keatkeat while I was playing the rice-picking game. *giggle*

So, its 5:30pm now. Another 1 and 1quarter day to go…. I MUST win the challenge! If I cannot even control what is within me, how can I control what is bigger than me – my life…. *Jiayou*

***”Jiayou” is an encouraging word in Chinese .

I have not been my usual self lately. I have new assignments and new roles to fulfill now, which are outside of what a role of a mother and a housewife needs to be. Plus over the last 2 weeks, I have been busy revamping my house, I am truly exhausted.

Hate to hear myself raising my voice at the kids and to see myself having lesser and lesser play time with them. I noticed I have become another person. And I do NOT like this person that I see anymore.

What used to make me ‘stare’ at them, now can get the fire spitting out from my mouth. It is horrible! This is NOT the usual me and I refused to change into this fiery dragon.

So I put myself up for this challenge.

For 3 days, I shall NOT flare up at my boys. I shall NOT say “Sorry dear, I can’t play with you. I need to settle this.” with my fingers tapping on the keyboard frantically.

NO MORE!

This has truly got to stop before it becomes a habit. As the saying goes “To pick up a bad habit just takes 3 days and to break it takes 3 years!” So BEFORE this becomes a habit, I must put a stop to it!

So what is my punishment?

If I fail the challenge, I will NOT turn on my PC for the following 3 days, which is going to be devastating to the assignments I have on hand. One day without checking my email will cost me money. One day without looking into my schedules on the internet will make me lose my clients trust in me. So the punishment is going to be really severe on myself.

And by announcing this publicly on my blog, it is a commitment I am making, ‘cos all eyes are going to be on me…. Bet there is going to be phone calls checking on my status too… *wink*

To me, if punishment were just to write 100 sentences of repent, then it is bound to fail. As a stay at home mom, it is not just about being a nanny, but one that knows how to prioritise.

With that said. The time has already started today at 00:01… so far so good…